Пришлось побывать в Онкологическом центре, которые считается лучшим в России. Казалось бы, в больнице окружение должно облегчать страдание больных, но не здесь. Это огромное 23-этажное здание из бетона в духе Северной Кореи, вокруг которого летают вороны. Корпуса, облицованные грязным ракушечником, раскинулись вдоль Каширского шоссе. На стенах преступные объявления "Исцеление обреченных", а из многочисленных труб идет пар. Внутри - не лучше: деревянные инсталляции напоминают по форме черепа, на гобелене заходит коричневое солнце, а на картинах - война. Охрана пропускает всех, все стены обшарпанные, вся техника 60-х годов. На первом этаже супермаркет и магазин париков.

Нужно поставить памятник всем врачам и медперсоналу, которые лечат больных в таких условиях!

I'm addicted to building e-networks. Everytime I enter the Internet, I check up my Facebook and VKontakte, which takes up so much time. I've even attended a special seminar in HSE on social networks, where I met many people I know from different groups.

I must learn how to be effective and efficient. I can be so, but only in stressful atmosphere, when I have to do the impossible for one day. How to live a normal life? How to force myself to do everyday routine, not only flashy life projects?

I'm determined to combine finance and international developoment in my further career. So, I will probably write my term papers, graduation thesis on microfinance. Moreover, I am in search for a job in this area with a development institution. It might sound naive, but it's so important for me that my job contributes to the society.

Hey, Moscow!

I feel as if I haven't left Moscow, because everything is so usual here. I automatically run on streets, thread my way through crowds, and get to places I need. I feel more diversity, danger, creativity, lack of taste, luxury, intellect, philosophy, prosperity, politics, bureaucracy, art, etc. Some may like it or not, but it's definitely the city that is full of energy.

My Estonian experience has been very useful. Professionally, I’ve structured my mind, learnt a lot about accounting in banks, and clarified my future career ambitions. Personally, I’ve got aware of economic and political realities of the Baltics, expanded my international network, and experienced a different mentality. However, I don’t regard this experience as very pleasant.

Bye bye, Estonia!

Last Friday was the day to say bye bye to my colleagues and international friends in Tallinn. So, I brought some melon and water melon to Hansabank and organized Poka Poka Buffet in my flat.

My colleagues were respectful, but, as usual, quite indifferent. I understand it's the mentality, but it's much more easier for me to have either warm or cold relations with people, but not nothing. At least I was glad that everybody told me "See you in Moscow", when I was leaving.

Our Analysis and Planning Department: Kristel, Rait, me, Diana, Mart, Mirko

I will not miss Estonia, but I will miss my international friends, especially Ankur (India) and Mustafa (Turkey). They were the first who came to my Poka Poka Buffet, others came later. I served some Georgian wine with snacks and organized a quizz on Russia and Turkmenistan. Of course, the Estonians have been the best, which is a result of common educational space that used to exist. I gave matryoshkas as prizes and played Russian pop songs.

Saturday, my last day was quite sad. I packed my luggage early in the morning, went shopping with Mustafa, and then helped him to relocate to our flat from the hostel. My best friends came to the train station to see me off. My neighbour in the car was a nice lady, who is an official. She gave me food and told lots of stories from her life, but escaped every political question I asked.

• On Friday I hosted 2 Estonian girls from Parnu. Three interns from Brazil, Hong Kong, and Bulgaria stayed at my room during the weekend. Now a French guy is staying with me for 3 days. I really like meeting new people and helping them.
• Mustafa and I went to Haapsalu for the weekend. It's a small town, known as Estonian Venice, as it's located on stripes of land in the Baltic Sea. It's lovely, but so small and silent. Everybody, especially local girls, stared at us, strange dark guy, hanging around on empty streets.
• My friend from Germany is looking for partners in Eastern Europe. So, I've placed his order on AIESEC Alumni's Forum. But I was very surprised to get one strange letter from one Russian "alumnus" this morning. Besides being full of slang, it claims that I'm a stupid bastard who offers crap.
• Last week I ordered a USB memory stick with a Hansabank Logo via the Internet. I got it this morning, but was so disappointed to realize that its cover doesn't fit the body and it has 2 defects on one of the sides. So, now I'm going to fight to get my money back (about 30 EUR).
• Only one week is left before my departure to Moscow, but I'm already there in my mind. Well, I have to save my personal documents, wash all the clothes, and organize a bye bye party. It's so sad to leave my international friends here. I know I'll have a reintegration shock in Moscow.